I might as well post this here.
Can anyone help me not be racist? I hate being surrounded by loud black people and Hispanics who don't even speak English. Hearing Spanish all day at work seriously triggers me. Part of it is that I'm afraid they're making fun of me because they know I don't understand what they're saying. I know nobody would talk shit about anyone all the time but I'm still paranoid because they could be talking shit about me at least sometimes and I have no way of knowing when. I'm afraid of groups of black people in public. 13/50 is real, even if you think that's caused by poverty/racism/cops. Logically I know the chances of me getting knockout-gamed while passing any group of black people is less than one in a million but I still feel fear sometimes.
I also think race and IQ is probably legit. I'm sick of people denying science because they think it's "racist." If you can scientifically refute these findings that's fine but it's so obvious most people react to these ideas in a purely knee jerk fashion because they're afraid of being racist or being called racist.
I feel bad about being racist because I don't want to hate anyone or hurt anyone and there are lots of very good non-white individuals but for some reason sometimes racial minorities trigger my hostility. I don't actually do anything racist fyi, I generally won't even say slurs online because I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings. One more thing, I've lived in mostly white areas all my life but I still made a few non-white acquaintances. I never hated them. Make of that what you will.