>growing up was fucked for reasons out of my control, so now I'm 21 and have no clue about what to do with myself and i'm just wasting away in community college.
Then figure it out. You are in shit circumstances, but the fact that you're going to any college at all means you can get an associates, or other degree. You aren't retarded.
>but if we're going this route you really sound more like one of those bullshit self-improvement bronze age fitness narcissists on twitter more than anything.
Believe it or not, self-improvement shit actually has something to it. I'm an avid reader of this material, and though I know it isn't a solution to a deeper problem, I don't post on bunkerchan about how nothing can ever possibly get better.
This is like incels complaining about showering and going to the gym when they don't shower or go to the gym to begin with. Yeah, it won't fix every issue, but start there.